Tuesday, July 15, 2014
7 days, 7 chances
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Vagabond's Farewell
Too long a time 'tween me and gone
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Seth and May
She said we put a little something by
For when the days come hard
But as for today, I will sing
He strummed and said there's no gold watch
At the end of thirty years of this
But as for today, I will sing
They sang its easy to die poor these days
Harder to die happy
But that's the kind of work we're willing to do
its easy to die poor these days
Harder to die happy
But that's the kind of work we're willing to do
She looked into his big brown eyes
And sang the song within her heart
And he played his song for her the whole day through
One gold band on her left hand
A silver band on his
They made their love into their music and they gave it to you
Because its easy to die poor these days
Harder to die happy
But that's the kind of work they're willing to do
its easy to die poor these days
Harder to die happy
But that's the kind of work we're willing to do
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Providence
A surprise check arrived in the daily mail
And then a brand new bill to pay
I thought the old man'd be upset
Till I overheard him say
"How blessed I am
That the Lord provides
Always in the nick of time
I know that I can count on Him
Ain't Providence divine"
His truck broke down on a dusty road
Coming back home from town
He grinned as the sun broke right through the rain
And picked some flowers on his way, sayin'
"How blessed I am
That the Lord provides
Always in the nick of time
I know that I can count on him
Ain't Providence divine"
His wife was near her mortal end
Full of rising pain and fear
And the Lord he took her life that day
And brought her spirit near
I thought that this would be the day
My friend's faith would lose its light
But he said to me "it was answered prayers
That the Lord ended her fight
How blessed I am
That the Lord provides
Always in the nick of time
I know that I can count on Him
Ain't Providence divine"
Writer's block
Staring at a blank page
Pen in hand, devoid of rage
Or hurt or joy or anything
To write, and maybe later sing
Emotion is a writer's fuel
To just go numb feels rather cruel
Emptiness ain't good for me,
my music, or my poetry
Let go
I'm letting go
Of feeling like I need to know
Which way the dice will roll
I'm releasing all control
Cuz I never had it anyway
Its just another of the games we play
Pretending like we make the rules
Beneath it all we all are fools
The earth still turns
And the sun still burns
Not hastened by my hurry
Or bogged down by my worry
The stars, they stay
way up in the sky
Cuz they're not held there by you or I
(they're not held there by you or I)
Everything
is in its rightful place
Created and sustained by Grace
(Created and sustained by Grace)
So just let go
Of feeling like you need to know
Which way the dice will roll
You can just release control
Cuz you never had it anyway
Its just another of the games we play
Pretending like we make the rules
Beneath it all we all are fools
So just let go
Breathe me in
in the middle of the night
he's still asleep
and yet he pulls me tight
against his skin
he breathes me in
I used to think
how long can this thing last
but before I blinked
it seems the decades passed
but time moves along
soon he'll be gone
and there's nothing to do
but keep on keeping on
Soon I'll reach for him
in the middle of the night
he won't be there
to sigh and pull me tight
against his skin
or breathe me in
Crazy Talk
and a troubled heart
my meds aren't working yet
I wish they'd start
Pills don't work for everybody
but they usually work for me
It keeps the prison of this illness away
and lets me live like I'm free
But every week is different
and no two days are the same
and sometimes there's nothing you can do
but say the meds are to blame
When you got a restless mind
and a troubled heart
and your meds aren't working yet
but you pray they'd start
I made a visit to the doc today
I don't know why, cuz I knew what he'd say
"We gotta get the dose to where it'll work
so you can stop being a jerk"
My reality can be a strange fiction
but I don't have a drug addiction
I do take some but that's okay
Because I only take what the doctors say
But I still got a restless mind
and a troubled heart
my meds aren't working yet
I wish they'd start
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYuFg-GlZJ8
When you fell
for consistency
the lies you told yourself
were the same ones you told me
Now you're asking me to trust
the words upon your tongue
but it doesn't come as easy
as it did when I was young
Maybe it's her age,
that young and pretty, skinny stage
The one in the photo in your email
you tried to delete, but failed
I had you high up on that pedestal
and it hurt me when you fell
One home, one bed
one life to lead
I'm pretty sure that is just what
you and I agreed
when the words I do
were on your tongue
but it seemed a whole lot easier
when we were young
And I have nowhere else to go
cuz that's how marriage is, you know
I had you high up on that pedestal
and it hurt me when you fell
I hope you're done
with your lying
I'm not sure I could take
much more crying
It's time up you give up
that romance
and give our love
another chance
We've been together
since god knows when
and it's hard to tell where you end
and where I begin
I had you high up on that pedestal
and it hurt me when you fell
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OxJACzijzN0
Hello baby
to see if I'd be home
I didn't know just what to say
My time was not my own
I gave what seems like most my life
to make that daily bread
but now that twilight's growing near
I wish that I had said
"Hello baby
I miss you too
I'll be home in just a bit
and tomorrow I'll lie next to you"
I don't know why I stay here still
it's not like we are poor
You earn enough for both of us
no wolves are at our door
You deserve the best of me
not merely what is left of me
and you're my first priority
so babe I'm coming home
Hello baby
I miss you too
I'll be home in just a bit
and tomorrow I'll lie next to you
So call me on the phone today
to see when I'll be home
and I will know just what to say
"Babe, I'm already home"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znHl7Nb8xwE
Not Yet
I realized it's just the same as it has always been, and it's
probably as good as it will ever get
I'm looking for a silver lining, haven't seen it yet, but go ahead and
Tell me how this too shall pass
Go ahead and tell me how dark days don't last
Tell me again how I'm so strong
And I won't tell you that you're wrong
It's not like I'm afraid to ask for help
with doing things I cannot do for myself
But this ain't laundry or dishes, it ain't feeding the cat
It's waking up and being me and you can't help with that, so go ahead and
Tell me how this too shall pass
Go ahead and tell me how dark days don't last
Tell me again how I'm so strong
And I won't tell you but you're wrong
I realize it's just the same as it has always been, and it's
probably as good as it will ever get
I'm looking for a silver lining, haven't seen it yet
I'm looking for a silver lining, haven't given up yet
Performed by the Muse Collective: https://soundcloud.com/freeda-2/not-yet
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u-3aP1ZOASM
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Sea of pain
That I can just set down
Its much more a roiling sea
In which I'll likely drown
But too stubborn to let go
And you're the only hope in sight
And you said you'd be my Savior
Adore me till I float
Abide with me while I paddle
The long way to your boat
Pull me in before I sink
Inflate my lungs with words of hope
Give my mind with new thoughts to think
I know it means me harm
So wrap me in the safety of
Your ever loving arms
Set sail
It runs jagged and deep
And the tide is rising
while we sleep
the walls and the floor
You can't live here no more
Looking for the dawn
Affirm (song with chords)
I am (C7) guided by the Light
I am (F) calm within
and I (C) have clear sight
and (C7) as they are resolved
that I (F) am secure and safe
and my (C) fears are dissolved
that (C) runs so deep and (C) strong
I (G) give voice to my (F) gratitude
and (C) wings to my (C) song
(C) vine (C)
As (C7) it has molded me
(F) Now I can move forward
Un (C) burdened, feeling free
Those (C7) old and dusty scenes
For (F) I have been reborn
I have (C) been washed clean
that (C) runs so deep and (C) strong
I (G) give voice to my (F) gratitude
and (C) wings to my (C) song
I am (G) one with (F) the Di (C) vine (C)
Quiet guy
No poetry or song
He's kind of an old fashioned guy
Hard working, quiet, strong
But his story's plain to see
This man is not a mystery
His heart's upon his sleeves
Not on paper in a book
He wrote them there upon his arms
Where anyone can look
Tales of love and pain
Tattooed upon his skin and soul
Inside and outside the same
Then he's got tons to say
That "quiet guy"
You passed by today.
They since have grown to teens
As for the big blooming rose
You can't tell what it means
She died when he was young.
And there's the mark of his first true love
From before they came undone
A saucy little minx
He said he'd put her name right there
But she claims it's a jinx
Tales of love and pain
Tattooed upon his skin and soul
Inside and outside the same
Then he's got tons to say
That "quiet guy"
You didn't speak to today.
Prodigal returns
Were lost to me
So made my peace
And set you free
'Most every day
Since the one
You went away
Upon my door
And I am scared
To hope for more
It nice and slow
And not push past
How fast you go
And now are found
My prodigal child
Came back around
Into me
Look through my eyes
Try on my skin
Just for size
Behind my face
Choose who I am
For this time, this place
Handle it all
I'll be in the corner
Curled into a ball
Or find happiness?
I was trying for both
But came up with something less
Drive me like a ship
Set my sails
For the next little bit
Handle it all
I'll be in the corner
Curled into a ball
Guru
He looked old and calm and wise
But I couldn't get up there with him
Though I swear I tried
And sat here upon this ledge
Stopped looking up, stopped looking in
And wandered blindly towards the edge
Be careful lest you fall
You may not have made it all the way up here
But its better than not climbing at all
Then another two or three
Rested whenever I felt the call
And surrendered all the fear inside
Be careful lest you fall
You may not have made it all the way up here
But its better than not climbing at all
He said you found your answers there below
Upon that rocky path
Blessing
And a day you'll be gone
But our journey of growth
Carries on and on
We don't have to fight
After all it may not matter
Which of us is right
I see a blessing glow
Every storm cloud makes a rainbow
And hopefully we know
Whether it's time to give or take
There's a lesson here
And some growth to make
Doesn't matter which is true
Whichever you turn out to be
I'll try to be a blessing to you
Ascend
Know this is not the end
It's just now is your time
To ascend
It's time. You can just let it go.
Don't worry that you'll be forgotten
Enter the cosmic flow
Feel the love of the ones who knew you
Take a moment to whisper goodbye
Take a look at all you've created
And ready yourself to fly
Good old day
an old grown-over hay bale under my ass
Out behind the big old barn
that used to be red
And the cowboy hat that used to be yours
Music fire friends and beer
Soon the memories'll fade away
So lets enjoy it while its here
Another good old day
Hit the mud, he's already stuck
Let's grab some chains
and drag him out of there
Then another and then a damn tire
Somebody better catch that girl
fore she catches fire to her hair
Music fire friends and beer
Soon the memories'll fade away
So lets enjoy it while its here
Another good old day
Jessica
With buckets full of easy luck
She gets by mostly on her nerve
Her confidence and pluck
Are the right fuel for her soul
and the really really long shots
Well, they're the only kind she throws
From here in Kalamazoo
And if that ain't luck then I don't know
what lucky means to you.
Kinda like her legs
And the boys they come from all around
You can almost hear them beg
But she's okay to wait
Mr perfect lost his watch
He's coming but he's runnin late
From here in Kalamazoo
And if that ain't luck then I don't know
what lucky means to you.
From here in Kalamazoo
And she makes her luck and she takes that luck and
makes her dreams come true.
Gold
our greatest fear
may be that we're not guaranteed
the golden years
to grow leisurely old
So perhaps we should turn
today to gold
what would you forgive
who would you love
how would you live?
If today was gold
may just be out of reach
If we only had a golden hour
Would we learn what it had to teach?
who would you love
how would you live?
If this hour was gold
In our very busy minds
Unless we open up our eyes
We'll meet the sunset blind
what would you forgive
who would you love
how would you live?
If this moment was gold
Cube farm
Gray cubicle walls surround me
Like a fog rolled from sea
till I cannot see
A way out
sexy greenish tint to my skin
And I cannot see
My way out
I was young when I first started here
Now I wonder where the years went
Then to be forced out alone
And so I cannot see
A way out
But I hear its tough out there
And I'm afraid I'll never see
My way out.
Bitter pill
She says that mine
is not to wonder why
But do or just die quietly
Well that ain't quite my style.
to serve her needs
But I try not to lose my nerve
Or forget to stand up for me
Am D
Over to her potty chair
Steady her while she tells me
how she wish't I wasn't there.
C G Am
I got her medication straight
But she seems to be sneaking
...a bitter pill
I can't take a whole lot more
Its wearing me down, sorting the stacks
So the insults while I care for you
Can't find a way to slip in
glad because duty and honor is a
whole lot easier than love.
But she seems to be sneaking
a bitter pill
She seems to be sneaking
a bitter pill
Roll tide
It's bright and sunny outside today
But ever since she went away
It's been very cold and empty inside
And I've found there's no warm place to hide
The sand crabs run funny and free
But somehow it's just cold and empty inside
And it pulls me in just like the tide
Drown all these memories
Roll tide, roll tide
Cleanse me of reality
Seems like it must weigh a million pounds
Don't send a life raft or boat for me, my friend
This is just how it was meant to end
Hold me in your embrace
Roll tide, roll tide
Till I can't remember her face
Namaste
To know and be known
Or is it just our destiny
To be born and to die alone
This tiring human race
So few who seem to want
The respite of warm embrace
Tell me who you really are
The finish line won't move a bit
Its not a shooting star
Moving quickly, burning bright
Its strange how you can fail to see
By the glow of your own light.
So you can see your way
And I can use the light you lend
To get me through til day
To know and be known
Perhaps it is better
To show and be shown
No matter how pale
The light that's within us
Which never will fail